| Meh, I can't believe it's already been another year. Past events and memories are starting to blur together and since everything is speeding up, it's getting harder to recall when something happened; usually when I remember something, it ends up being older than I expected. I can still remember 2004 like it was yesterday. My 2nd year in college felt like year 1.5. It's hard to believe I'm halfway already (or relatively close, hopefully.)
It's hard to say what I want to do with my online life i.e. Xanga, Facebook, some other form of personalized webspace. I feel like retiring entirely with the exception of Facebook, but a part of me also wants to go the extra mile. SNABBANS.com anyone? Personally I'm tired of personal pages that all look the same: some form of blog that gives away lots of personal information and assorted song lyrics. I guess I'm just tired of looking the same. ::myspace:::cough::::cough::
Yep, I want something different. I want to express myself the way I want to, without restrictions or conformity. No, I'm not going emo, but I think it's time for a change. Don't really know what'll happen yet, but everything always works out.
SO, I've been working on a song this past month, although most of what I've already written came out today after a week of banging my head against the wall. I'm writing it to raise the bar on what I can already do; most of the stuff I wrote back in high school and over the last 2 years was either forced or uninspiriational. Even my own "garage" band The F Coalition didn't take off because of the lack of good material. But now, I think I finally have something special. I haven't written the lyrics yet, but it's going to be an emotional song that will be dedicated for someone--I won't tell because I'm not even sure who I'm writing it for, but it DOES have a purpose. What happens between now and...whenever will dictate the true purpose for the song. If you're REALLY interested in what I have so far, and you're up for some casual musical critiquing, message me, although I'd prefer to not release the song to too many people until it's finished.
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| - 2/2...and I don't know why. I guess the reason why I randomly chose to write in this long forgotten blog at 3 in the morning lies in the fact that I'm in a weird place. Things around me are changing and I'm caught with no floor below me. I really don't know what else to say to explain my situation--except that I feel like I've been living in the past and now that it's withering away, I'm losing my grip on what it is supposed to be like. For the first time it feels like I don't know where I am or where I'm going; but I don't feel lost. It's more like whatever happens, happens only now without the certainty.
I don't know what's going on, but I do know that it is.
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| Hi SNABBANS! It's been 666 (wow, that's a big number) days since you joined Xanga... won't you support us by going Premium?
Yay, devil.
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